&#you do it to yourself;;you do;;and that’s what really hurts;;you do it to yourself;;just you;;you and no one else#&
time: 9;49pm
listening: radiohead
eating: cadbury turkish delight icecream - the best icecream from a tub i am yet to find
I’ve always had so many plans for my life.
Usually for small things in my life; for example, this holidays, I was going to do an hour of maths each day, to help with the fact that I very nearly failed my 3U test this term by literal standards, and completely failed by my own. The key words in this statement were “going to”. Of course, I am sitting here with but a few days left of my two weeks, with half an exercise done in half an hour.
This year I was going to work hard. Be motivated. Get good marks. Satisfy my standards. Well I fucked that up royally last term.
I always tell myself that I will do something, and never end up doing it.
I’m starting to think that I may just end up going through my whole life like this… the problem is, it’s not going to get me anywhere. I always discuss the things I would like to do with my life; well, Caitlin, this is it.
So why aren’t you doing them?
Something always comes up, I’m always too busy, I’m just not in the right mood. When will I be?
Educationally speaking, my main goal is to get into uni. More specifically (as that is pretty much a given), to get into some form of science/medicine/related at Sydney Uni. I know how hard I’ll have to work to do this, but it’s my dream, so can’t I just find the motivation to get me where I want to be? It would seem not.
Bloody hell.
I had so many grand plans for my life.
One day, I will build a treehouse. A proper one. Because I have always wanted to.
I’m just searching for the tree.
Here I am.
Commenting etc.
You know, I think we all had that expectation.
Like I remember making a whole checklist for this holidays.
All the stuff I was going to do and be awesome etc.
But actually, I only really went to the library once.
And I only did my eco essay and ext short story and that was it.
I’ve done nothing.
Achieved nothing.
Every single time I got close I wound up at the movies or blogging or on Miss Bimbo or something.
I just don’t understand those people who are motivated enough to get 100% in stuff.
Hell I don’t understand people who actually do stuff at all.
I can’t stop thinking it’s only year 11.
And I’m scared that next year I’ll be saying it’s only yr 12.
You know I absolutely agree with you. I’m still searching for that tree and it’s not coming to me! Haha.
I’m a fan of turkish delight, but I haven’t tried the ice cream version. I guess I’ll put that on my list of things to do immediately after the HSC. After all, what better way to celebrate the end of your school semester than with mind-numbing ice cream.
My holidays… were meant to be for doing work too. I haven’t really done much. But hey, it’s a bit late. So I’m just going to have to try a tad better. And hope for the best. Sydney Uni is awesome. Their campus is über.
As for this treehouse, well, if you ever intend to build one, I’m interested haha. We might even do some marshmallow exploding too!
i’ll help you build a treehouse! =]