&#i’m starting to feel;;that we stay together;;out of fear;;of dying alone#& June 30, 2008

time: 11;16pm
listening: death cab for cutie
eating: more strepsils :)
Beliefs About Life and Things.
1. People secretly rather enjoy leaving things til the last minute. It gives them a sense of busy-ness and importance (“Oh, I simply can’t, I have this and that and everything else to do!”). Then again maybe it’s just human nature to be [...]

&#when i’m dancing with you tomorrow doesn’t matter;;turn that music up til the windows start to shatter#& June 30, 2008

time: 12;33pm
listening: orson
eating: strepsils
To my friends, my gorgeous, lovely, brilliant, secretive friends,
Thankyou.
For the idea of the party, for the presents, for turning up to show me that the world is good :)
Despite the fact that I was coming down with a cold, and therefore did not have the energy to dance as much as usual, [...]

&#hold me down;;sweet and low;;little girl;;and i’ll carry you home#& June 23, 2008

time: 10;31pm
listening: augustana
eating: a brownie my brother made; it has choc chips and lolly dinosaurs and it’s great
Ok. So I realise that my last post was all “life-sucks-just-shoot-me-now“, and to a certain extent, that is still there. However, I am feeling a lot better for a couple of reasons.
Firstly, I have finally allowed myself to [...]

&#there’s a war inside of me;;do i push it down;;or let it run me right into the ground?#& June 19, 2008

time: 8;36pm
listening: tegan & sara
eating: carrot sticks
Today was horrible. I spent half of it worrying about tomorrow’s Othello task, for which I don’t feel exceptionally prepared, and the other half staring blankly, trying not to cry. Yesterday was horrible too. I spent half of it worrying about the maths, and the other half, again, trying [...]

&#i want to change the world;;instead i sleep;;all we can do is keep breathing#& June 17, 2008

time: 8;12pm
listening: ingrid michaelson
eating: the just right concoction
Tomorrow I have a 3U Maths test. You know the one that I promised myself, in some long forgotten post, that I would study for? Yeh well I’m still screwed. It’s not that I can’t do it, I can (sort of), just not anywhere near as fast as [...]

&#down where the city meets the sea;;i sit and daylight speaks to me;;she carries me away#& June 13, 2008

time: 8;52pm
listening: .collection(q)
eating: lindt chocolate
Yeh ok, it’s official.
I’m 16!
It sounds so much older than 15 ey. I believe a “Hurrah” is in order :)
Anyway, I don’t actually have a whole lot to write. No new bursts of wisdom, no sudden insight into life. I have however been educated in the wonders of crocheting and bingo [...]

&#is there anyone out there;;cos it’s getting harder and harder to breathe#& June 10, 2008

time: 10;10pm
listening: maroon 5
eating: lemonade (the secret is schweppervescence….)
Well I thought a nice ranting post would go well tonight, seeing as how tomorrow is my birthday, and therefore I will be happy, and therefore my post will be all just “Oh I love the world.” I am, however, reasonably happy at the moment also, so [...]

&#very late at night;;and in the morning light;;nobody knows me at all#& June 8, 2008

time: 5;58pm
listening: the weepies
eating: a mandarin (which seem to be particularly good this season…)
It has come to my attention that apparently, I have quite a number of readers. I find this quite fascinating for two reasons; one, I didn’t think what I wrote was all that interesting, and two, it’s endlessly amusing to hear what [...]

&#i need you;;and i miss you;;and now i wonder#& June 6, 2008

time: 10;57pm
listening: vanessa carlton (pink clover love for dara)
eating: nothing… I want icecream but I’m being good.
This is really a continuation of one of my last posts, but no one made a rule to say I couldn’t backtrack and discuss the same things again. This time it’s not so much about success and failure, but [...]

&#run where you’ll be safe;;through the garden gates;;to the shelter of magnolias;;there’s not much time#& June 4, 2008

time: 7;39pm
listening: the hush sound (newly discovered the magic of this band…)
eating: nothing, just had dinner
It’s raining outside.
Don’t know why I tagged on that “outside”, obviously it’s not raining in here.
But the point was, it’s raining.
I love it when it rains, especially if I’m walking somewhere. This may sound silly (most people attempt to avoid [...]