&#may angels lead you in;;hear you me, my friends;;on sleepless roads the sleepless go;;may angels lead you in#& April 27, 2009

Dear ###,
We have known each other so long. I will never be as good at making friends as you. I will never be as popular as you. I will never work as hard as you. Please; the underhanded competition is getting old. Let me be who I am without giving me the feeling that you [...]

&#dear future;;i bought you;;i own the rights;;to let go;;destroy you;;this is my life#& April 24, 2009

(una)
wonderment is everywhere
as she makes her way forward
the first step
so unsteady
but so determined
{she will get there}
(duae)
fairies in the garden are
enough to excite sparks in the
brown eyes that
REFLECT|TCELFER
light like a mirror
untainted
by images of destruction
or by promises
broken
like the doll she
d
r
o
p
p
e
d
on the pavement
c/r/a/c/k
the tears that followed
merely trickling
compared to the river that will
RUSH
later
she knows no later
not yet
{she will get [...]

&#and i could write a book;;the one they’ll say that shook the world;;and then it took;;it took it back from me#& April 13, 2009

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I had intended to write this and leave it closed so no one could read it, but then I was talking to a friend about its contents and realised she felt exactly the same way about a lot of it – for this reason, I am opening most of my previously-passworded posts. Maybe some day [...]

&#on the back of a motorbike;;with your arms outstretched trying to take flight#& April 5, 2009

I think for a long time I have been trying to be someone I’m not. Not to impress anyone, not for any reason except that I want to be someone who I am not. Finally I think I’ve come to terms with myself, and my dreams, and I will realise them. I refuse to settle [...]