:) August 2, 2009

Felt like a change for some reason.
Maybe I’m just procrastinating.
Relocated (posts and comments and all) to
http://rainbowandawesome.blogspot.com/
and will be writing there from now on.
:)

&#make better years from bitter days;;just look around#& July 29, 2009

Hello sunshines, loyal readers, the ones the stats tell me have been checking back here waiting on some post, some new rant, something, anything! I haven’t written in ages. I don’t think you could really count my last post almost two months ago as writing either. Cheap post. I don’t know why I stopped writing; [...]

&#this old world well;;don’t it make you wanna think “damn.”#& June 4, 2009

I stumbled across this tonight, it’s something I wrote at the very start of Year 12. I think we were told “Write a feature article about belonging.” – a very inspiring starting point. The actual thing isn’t that well written but it was properly researched and has some interesting facts, so instead of bothering to [...]

&#and i’m sure you’re on your way;;yes i’m sure you’re on the road#& May 25, 2009

I spent all of last night and all of this morning reading a book; Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. Fascinating in a somewhat morbid sort of way, it’s the (fictional) story of Hannah Baker, a girl who has committed suicide. Before doing so, she records 13 tapes explaining the parts that 13 (or maybe [...]

&#masquerade;;paper faces on parade;;hide your face so the world will never find you#& May 20, 2009

You mention I seem withdrawn,
I tell you it’s just school;
it isn’t.
I say I’m fine;
I’m not.
I eat a chocolate from the box which I carry round, the ever-present temptation
while I think about whether vinegar really does work as an appetite suppressant
(despite the fact that I never even have an appetite – but just in case).
You notice [...]

&#taking all your money to the grave;;it does no good to anyone;;especially the one you’re trying to save#& May 13, 2009

I like to think that at some point in my life something will happen which vaguely resembles a scene from a movie, just so I can say that it happened. That’s an irrelevant thought but I figured I’d throw it in.
There’s a lady who catches my train in the morning. Day in, day out, she [...]

&#may angels lead you in;;hear you me, my friends;;on sleepless roads the sleepless go;;may angels lead you in#& April 27, 2009

Dear ###,
We have known each other so long. I will never be as good at making friends as you. I will never be as popular as you. I will never work as hard as you. Please; the underhanded competition is getting old. Let me be who I am without giving me the feeling that you [...]

&#dear future;;i bought you;;i own the rights;;to let go;;destroy you;;this is my life#& April 24, 2009

(una)
wonderment is everywhere
as she makes her way forward
the first step
so unsteady
but so determined
{she will get there}
(duae)
fairies in the garden are
enough to excite sparks in the
brown eyes that
REFLECT|TCELFER
light like a mirror
untainted
by images of destruction
or by promises
broken
like the doll she
d
r
o
p
p
e
d
on the pavement
c/r/a/c/k
the tears that followed
merely trickling
compared to the river that will
RUSH
later
she knows no later
not yet
{she will get [...]

&#and i could write a book;;the one they’ll say that shook the world;;and then it took;;it took it back from me#& April 13, 2009

__________________________________________
I had intended to write this and leave it closed so no one could read it, but then I was talking to a friend about its contents and realised she felt exactly the same way about a lot of it – for this reason, I am opening most of my previously-passworded posts. Maybe some day [...]

&#on the back of a motorbike;;with your arms outstretched trying to take flight#& April 5, 2009

I think for a long time I have been trying to be someone I’m not. Not to impress anyone, not for any reason except that I want to be someone who I am not. Finally I think I’ve come to terms with myself, and my dreams, and I will realise them. I refuse to settle [...]